Behind the Mask

by Jyoti Murray.

How authentic are we really?  Do we allow for time & space in our lives for the invisible to become visible?   Or do we layer up on fashion, habitual expression, business, distractions & addictive behaviours to keep us “hidden & distracted” from truly feeling and living our greatest potential.

This word “Authentic” is popular of late, it’s everywhere and I use it too.   I admit I’ve been very guilty of hiding in the past but these days I’m committed to peel off the layers that I once built for the purpose of protection, and to fit in with the populous.  For years I didn’t know who I was, I was lost, so very lost in the veils of illusion, suffering and hiding behind a facade that ultimately kept me separate, because we can all “feel” and sense inauthenticity.  We are animal in nature and can sniff that stuff out like a hound dog on a duck hunt, subconsciously, we know when things don’t add up, what you see on the outside, yet something is amiss, that you can’t quite put your finger on.

I have a particular girlfriend living in Australia & when I know we are meeting I’m super excited,  because I know that the very moment we meet we both show up ready for real deep & honest connection, exposing our hearts “naked”….  It feels so friggin good to be seen, I’d even go as far to say enlivened and invigorated, I guess because it’s so rare?

Simply to look into the eyes of another being when in conversation can be difficult as the eyes are the windows to the soul.  I want that depth, not just with one girlfriend but when I speak with my father, with a student, with a lover, with a stranger, the same respect for everyone, as we all deserving of this basic honouring.

I really desire to find freedom, to show my true face, and I vow to move through any discomfort or awkwardness  to get there, who wants to join me?

“The most important kind of freedom is to be what you really are. You trade in your reality for a role. You trade in your sense for an act. You give up your ability to feel, and in exchange, put on a mask. There can’t be any large-scale revolution until there’s a personal revolution, on an individual level. It’s got to happen inside first.”
― Jim Morrison